Overthinking

Hmm. Blog, I am at a lose today. I'm very tempted to complain about the things that I'm going through right now, but I don't want this to become an angsty tumblr read-more post. After watching a ZeFrank video, though, I do want to talk about overthinking.

He discusses periods of ease and comfort followed by periods of breakdown and reconstruction. Everything runs smoothly for a while until you start wondering whether something is wrong or could be better. Than false ideas start to build up, things created by that worry and fear that are often untrue. Those ideas then replace the true facts of the situation and suddenly, change becomes a necessity. Manageable roadblocks morph into  unbearable weights. This overthinking often occurs in creative pursuits or interpersonal relationships.

I often overthink my relationships with others, assuming that certain gestures or phrases from another person must result from something that I did. Then I scrutinize all of my actions around this person from the past week or so, wondering where I went wrong. Most of the time this internalized destruction has no reason to take place. When I have faulted the other person, however, then that part of me seems hideous and requiring immediate alteration. Or, if it comes to it, I assume that the problem could be because of the other person. The light that I once saw them in slowly changes, now relieving flaws that may just be a result of my overthinking. This affects the way I treat them, and often it is unfair. I've ruined some friendships this way.

Overthinking is fairly easy to do. Whether it's something small like what to buy for lunch or something larger such as career or living decisions, overthinking has the power to disfigure normal thinking patterns and warp simple logic. Do you struggle with overthinking? How do you overcome it?

Days Left of BEDA: 21
Song of the Day: Imaginary Friend by L'Orange
Miles Run in April: 4 (still slacking...)